Friday, July 10, 2015

Friday Ramble - Fragile

Fragile... The word comes to us from Old French, thence from the Latin fragilis or frangere meaning to break. Tucked somewhere in there is the Indo-European bhreg and the Gothic brikan, both meaning to shatter. In modern parlance, the word means easily broken, damaged, delicate, brittle, frail, vulnerable, flimsy, lacking body, strength or substance.

That which is fragile is often assumed to be anything but robust or bright, and certainly not vibrant by any means, but it's not necessarily so. Fragile, bright, robust, vibrant and strong are not mutually exclusive, and they abide harmoniously together. Could anything be more fragile and at the same time, brighter, more vibrant and brimming over with robust life than humans and the island earth we share, the journey we are all on together?

My beloved is back in hospital this morning, and all my thoughts and attention are with the dear, beautiful, fragile man I have loved forever. Spencer and I wander the house at odd hours of the day and night and try to comfort each other.  I listen for telephone calls on my cell and check for messages, read something to pass the time and think that I must remember to share it with him, whatever it is.  Meal times slide by unnoticed, endless cups of coffee are brewed and grow cold.  Absent minded at the best of times, I always seem to be losing things like bank cards, keys and reading glasses. I am easily distracted and wild places keep floating by behind my eyelids at night, places we visited together and loved: Old Woman Bay on Lake Superior, Grise Fjord, Baffin Island, a certain frost touched grove in the Lanark Highlands on a foggy autumn morning - not an urban setting in the bunch.

Looking up at the morning sky through the spokes of a dandelion, everything in existence seems oh so fragile, and all is precious. Please let him be well.

10 comments:

Shelly said...

My thoughts are with you and your Mister, dear Lady...

Pienosole said...

I'm sending you warm and well thoughts and a big hug.

What in the World said...

Joining my prayers with yours for your husband's complete recovery.

Barbara Rogers said...

Our dear blogging friends share together, a virtual reality of whatever we're willing to make public, including our emotions touching in a new internetting way. May your sweet love be well, without discomfort, and healing. And may you just slide through this with the grace which you share here daily. All will be well.

a gardener said...

I join others in sending peace and healing.

Marsha said...

Yes - please let him be well. I send my prayers.

Lilian Nattel said...

Sending love and light. My heart goes out to you.

christinalfrutiger said...

Your heartfelt post brought tears to my eyes as I thought of my own, longtime marriage and how I would feel in your shoes. Utterly devastated and very "fragile"
I too am sending you peace, light and hope that all will be well.

sarah said...

wishing healing for your husband and comfort for you, many blessings.

Maggie Emm said...

Hope and love from me too, I love to follow your days but these are sad days…..x