Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Getting Through March

March came in like a lioness, and then the lioness stepped away for a few days. Within the brief tenure of her absence, birds paired off amorously, and there was a short maple syrup run.  Patches of hopeful earth and last year's withered grasses appeared along fences in the garden behind the little blue house in the village, and our birdbaths lifted their stony heads out of the deep snow.  For a handful of days, I dared to entertain thoughts of verdant springtime - gardening magazines, agricultural annuals and nursery catalogs bloomed on every surface in the little house in the village.

Halcyon days are over for the time being.  Now it appears we are back to winter for another week or two: cold days and icy nights: the north wind blowing heaps of snow against the door of the garden shed, shiny new icicles dangling from the rafters, earth and desiccated grasses vanished, clouds of snow in the offing.  The geese are going to be very late coming home this year.

What is one to do?  I drink copious amounts of espresso.  I give loving care to my spouse who is undergoing radiation and chemotherapy after several cancer surgeries.  In the depths of night, I plot another bed of roses to be dug (hopefully) next month, research heirloom vegetables and lay out the design for another quilt. I cultivate patience and forbearance and do NOT look out the window when snow falls again, hoping ardently that Lady March will get her act together and morph into a lamb, darn it.  At the end of winter, one becomes a tad maudlin.  When a friend in the Lanark Highlands told me this week that there were nearly sixty newborn lambs (mostly Blue Leicester) in her magnificent old log barn, I could have cried.

Enough is enough already.  Rain would be just fine, and it is far easier stuff to shovel. One thing about the weather though - night skies are absolutely fabulous at this time of the year: flaming sunsets and moons one can almost reach up and touch, planets dancing in the sky at dusk, dippers of starlight strewn by handfuls out of vast streaming cosmic cauldrons... Such things are priceless gifts.

5 comments:

Pienosole said...

Indeed, it is enough. I noticed the beautiful night sky the other night, so clear, just stunning. Who knows? Temperatures may turn warm faster than expected.

Jennifer said...

Dear Cate, three years ago my husband was going through cancer treatment this time of year....first he had surgery in January to remove his left lung, then from February until May he had chemotherapy. Just last night he was talking about how much good it did him when spring arrived and he was able to sit outdoors and soak up the sunshine, singing birds, blooming trees, and fresh air. (With our beloved dog Ginger by his side the whole time!)

I know that when spring finally arrives, it will lift your spirits and your husband's, too! The good greening Earth is wonderful medicine, the best medicine. How I wish I could send you some of our March weather....already there are masses of blooming trees, daffodils, nesting birds, warm breezes this far south. Hang in there! It is coming!!!

I think of you and your dear one often. I send you warm, positive, healing thouts regularly. My husband is completely cancer free and well 3 years after being diagnosed with stage 3b lung cancer...so there can be light at the end of some terribly dark tunnels!

Hugs to you both!

Kiki said...

I'm adding my healing thoughts and prayers, plus a huge bunch of blooming daffs, a basket filled with all-colours-primroses, a few tulips and lots & lots of birds' songs....
Jennifer voiced her thoughts beautifully. I'm surrounded by cancer patients and I wish I could always stay cheerful - but I am thankful for the fact that here, spring has sprung. Stay strong! It WILL happen. Big hugs, Kiki

Kay G. said...

Priceless gifts...I love your writing.
Healing thoughts for your husband.

christinalfrutiger said...

And I am adding my spring like healing thoughts and wishes to the others as well. As soon as he can sit outside or even by a window with some glorious sunshine streaming in, it will add it's healing powers. Maybe more so than all others. Nature is a wonderful healer, as you know....
Good thoughts to you both!